- Fact: The human brain makes you see yourself as 5 times more beautiful than you really are.
- Me: Well fuck.
So I have given up online dating with no men in my life, I’m lonely and I want to go out but no one to go with.. If I don’t go out I can’t meet new people and if I’m not online dating I’m not meeting new people.. Well how the fuck do I fix being lonely if I have no means of meeting new people!!!???
I’ve become to attached to my phone, so it’s time to take a phone vacation…
Only to make phone calls or text when necessary.. No more searching for nothing when I could be doing something ..
What do you do or say to someone you care about who’s mother died last night??
I feel helpless to him and just want to make things better and I can’t.. Advice please I’ve never had to deal with death this close..
Having the house to myself for the past few days has given me time to appreciate things, to notice more things I look for in a man and refocus on everything. I love a break in my routine I think that is why I date online ..
So today is Easter house is clean, my paper is done and I made dinner.. It’s 73 out and breezy, back door is open and the cat is on the porch… This setting had me wanting a man who would turn on the radio, come up behind me and hug me, kiss on my neck tickling me, then eventually turn me around and make out with me.. Once we stopped fooling around he play with the cat and then surprise me with egg decorating.. I love dweeby things and I want some who is the same..
And I have come to the realization is I like country esk men.. God please bring me the man my body needs and my soul craves..
I love going back and re-reading texts.. Just makes you smile or pisses you off more than before
I like a man but he is in Texas…. FML
I wish I had more time for pictures aka more time for a life outside of nursing school
So last night I made a long post about how I miss my ex. Let me clarify, I do miss him but I know I’m better this way. I’ve been wondering if I should contact him because I used to be so close to him and his family and for it to now be 2years later and hardly any contact hurts a lot. Lately I’ve been having dreams about getting in contact with him again and they have all turned out horrible which has made me reluctant to contact him. Also I was talking to someone and a couple I know broke up after 6 years of being together and the woman moved on almost immediately like those 6 years meant nothing. I truly believe that if you truly were in love with someone then it would be impossible to move on so quickly.. I know it took me a few months before I started dating again and I still have thoughts about him from time to time.. I wonder does he do the same? Because he went from our relationship to a new one in about 2 months and now they’ve been together almost two years. I know I meant more to him but seeing him move on so quickly was hard. Was it because he never was in love with me or because he was so hurt he had to fill the gap?
I supports I’ll never know for now but this is something that’s been weighing on my mind lately.. Any advice? Anyone ever feel the same? Feel free to inbox me..
Why do you always make me cry?? The last seen with the man saying he took so long to get with him was because he was afraid of losing him.. I used to think like that. More than ever I miss being in love, I miss having someone to love, I’m happy being single because I want someone to love and all this mindless dating just makes me realize that I won’t settle till I find love again..
P.s. To my ex I hate you for not being the one I would marry, I compare everyone to you and no one stands up against you. I hate that you failed me and we failed our relationship.. I miss my best friend and the life we had and our friends.. I know I wouldn’t be where I am today if we hadn’t broken up but i still miss you. I want to contact you and hear how things are with you and your family and have you appreciate the small stuff I do and kiss me and hug me.. God I miss you but I have to know that I will find better than you one day..
So I haven’t updated in a hot minute but that’s because I have no time!!! This is my hardest and most time consuming semester. Some days I feel on top of the world other (most) days I feel like I’m barely treading enough water to get air.
First we shall talk about social life. So there are a few men I’m talking to but there was one I was really starting to like and we went on two dates things were great then he dropped a comment on me. We shall call him the Banker, he went all day not say a word to me last week and at 11 at night dropped he didn’t want anything serious. Well at first I was upset and confused because everything was going great and we were talking about stuff we wanted to try together but then that. Well I told him I didn’t want to be someones “side chick” because I thought he was getting at that he wanted a booty call. So I was up the next day but then got over it, I went on another date on the weekend with a different man and that made me realize that I don’t want anything serious right now. That is the honest truth! I really liked Banker and let my feelings get ahead of me when he made that statement only realizing that I wanted the same thing. So Tuesday I text him what I wanted and that I liked him and wanted to spend time with him but with no relationship parameters and he felt the same way. This may not be something some of you agree with you but I’m not in a position in my life that I can keep and honor a relationship in the right way. I want something simple, fun, distracting, and invigorating.
Now for my life update. I have two more semesters left till I’m an RN. Yea bitchez!!! 9 weeks left of this semester! I am worried though because I took my OB test, thought I Aced it and I failed it!! Fuck My Life!!! I’m stressed to the max btw my actual classes and theory classes. So if you pray, talk to the universe send me good vibes please!!
Also a friends dad was Dx with stage4 lymphoma please please please keep him and her family in your thoughts!
Every girl deserves a man who will say “damn babe you look so good” then give her a big squeeze and kiss on the lips, cheek, or forehead!
Every man deserves a woman who will say “sexy babe, I’d do you” and slap his butt..